Excruciating Agony: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with severe pain around one eye that persists up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Carl Williams
Carl Williams

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